Tuesday, September 21, 2010


First day of Mother Day Out
we were lucky to even get a picture so I didnt push for a better one
The super cool motorcycle shirt was key for talking him into getting dressed and changing the subject.

Honey came over to watch Eliana for me so I could be there for Alex completely.

Well, school has not gone too well. Its been a process, that's for sure. I have been putting off posting because I 1) am busy 2) wanted to finish other posts first 3)wanted to see how he would do going again so that I could try to be positive.
So the first day he cried so hard he made himself throw up. He cried a lot (like crazy crying out reaching for me with that look!) when I dropped him off and they said he cried through out the day when other kids cried for their mommies. I will never forget how precious he looked when we went to pick him up- sitting in the hallway with the other kids, on the end closest to me, with his big backpack on his back, just like a sweet boy so grown up- brought tears to my eyes!
After the first day we had the weekend, and then we had our first MOPS on Monday. Horrible timing! He cried all morning at the house- hard! I didn't know if I was going to be able to get him out the door! And he started gagging again like he was going to throw up! He cried the whole way there and the whole way in the building. Freaked out when I left him in the room. Needless to say, MOPS was short of enjoyable and I cried like a fool in front of these strangers. They said that he threw up after about 10 min of crying and that after that, he seemed fine. and was happy!?!! I was so nervous about him going to school the next day after all that! It was hard to drop him off but it has gotten progressively better. I guess. He still cried but it has been less and less. No more throwing up- yea!!
He has tried to make "deals" with me to get out of going and just stay home. He says he is sick and needs to go to bed. He said he wanted to "bust out" of the car seat. You would think I am sending him to preschool prison camp! I don't get too much when I ask him about school but Tuesday he said "I dont like it. No like school." But, when I went to pick him up Thursday afternoon he admitted that he liked it. ?? He said he likes "music and movement" time. He doesn't really eat much lunch but I half way expected that. So he eats like a hungry hippo the rest of the day!
Today was the first day of car drop off and I knew that it would be a whole new transition. It was nice to not get out of the car with Ellie and all, but it was emotionally harder. Alex had time to just sit and think about being left while we waited in the car line. Then someone he doesn't really know took him out of the car- he wasn't a fan of that and I am pretty sure he told her to "go away!". Then I had to drive off while he cried for me looking over the lady's shoulder. It was pretty sad and I didn't really get to say my goodbye and get a hug. :( When I pick him up they just quickly say "he had another good day!" so I guess I shouldn't worry. He also said it was fun today and that he liked it! He was trying to sing the "circle time" song to me, I am pretty sure the teacher must sing when she wants them to come sit with her for circle time.
On top of school being rough, Alex has been refusing to nap!?! are you kidding me?! I thought school would wear him out! Well, it does, but he still won't fall asleep! I am really hoping that its just a phase! He really needs a nap and is a bear to be with all afternoon if he doesn't. The only positive is early to bed! And another result of all this was him being super clingy to me the other days and afternoons. It's MOMMY MOMMY! in this new fake whiny voice.
So its been hard on all of us. I have had my doubts of whether this was a good idea. I have had my guilty feelings. My heart breaks for him and I miss him, I do. We have both cried a little. But I think everything will be okay and it will be fine after we all get used to this new norm.
I have enjoyed the time with lil miss....shopping, cleaning, and sleeping in a quite house :)


Kristen said...

oh cassie, that sounds so hard! i'm glad to hear that he is starting to like it now! i hope the rest of the years goes much much much more smoothly for you guys.

The Stacer Family said...

Don't worry, Evan has been having just as hard of a time. Today's drop-off totally threw him for a loop. He was screaming, "Mama" over and over. He climbed into the front seat with me after they unbuckled him and wouldn't let go. He did much better last Thursday so hopefully he gets better. Maybe Alex can console him :)

Solomon Clan said...

I must admit I wanted to cry for you when I read about the car drop off. I know it is hard. Last year it took Emma until the middle of the year to be ok with the drop off. Every time I left her I felt like I was doing the wrong thing but in the end it was good for the both of us. It will get easier it just might take awhile.

I love the pic of you and Alex. Super cute!

Kristen said...

Poor Alex...I can't believe he cried until he threw up! I'm glad you waited to post so we know that it is getting better! You are such a strong Mommy!!!!! I hope it will continue to get better for him.

Jenny said...

Oh Cassie, I am so sorry about all of this that you have had to go through, but it really does seem like it is getting better, little by little! And I am sure the napping thing is just a phase, he is adjusting to this new way of life, you know? Does he nap on those stay at home days? He seems so smart to me, all the ways that he is coming up with reasons to not go, I know that makes it harder, but, gosh, he is so smart! I am proud of you for continuing a bit longer to see how it goes. You guys are in our prayers! Love you!